The One that Got Away

 I was clearing out cubby holes again the other day. I don't know why and how I was able to come up with such a dramatic letter, but here it is. Dated June 2009. I have a feeling this is gonna be controversial. XD

Sid,

I've come to realize that I'm really not the one for you. You have plans for your life, as I have for mine, and we have to admit that... well, they really don't match.

You're already this accomplished doctor, while I am still waiting on the inspiration to write my first bestseller. And I know that you're ready to settle down and have a family of your own. But as for me, I'm just about to take off and launch myself into the world. You're ready to be with someone, while I... I still have to be somebody, you know? You are closer to fulfilling your dreams than I am to mine. So I'm giving myself to those dreams. I can't make them come true if I give myself to something, or somebody, else. I can't be half-hearted about being a respectable author, and I'm not. So...

I honestly think that we're just...disctracting each other. I guess it's better if we just go back to who we were before. I don't want you to wait for me. I don't want you to hold back because you're letting me catch up with you. No, I won't let you do that. I'm ok with being just your friend. You'll find somebody who's good for you, better than me, the best that life can give you. God has greater things in mind for the both of us, and I don't want to get in the way of His plan for you.

Don't hate me. I care about you, but I just don't...see you in my future. To me, you'll just always be a friend. Thanks for being such a great one.

Go and find yourself THE ONE. And I'll be one of those happy people at your wedding. You will invite me, yes?

Love,

Darl

On Commitment (Part 3 of 3)

(cont.) Committing your life to the Lord is a sign, a demonstration, of your love for Him. You can't love Him if you don't know Him.

On Commitment (Part 2 of 3)

Let's take a trip to the not-so-distant past. Let's look back on our childhood days as a Christian. Let's remember the day we were born again.

On Commitment (Part 1 of 3)

What does it mean to commit?

Memory

Just something I wrote down a coupla days ago. I was...deep in thought, so much so that I couldn't sleep.
Been like that for a few days now. Maybe even weeks.
*sigh*
Anyway...

Keeping memories of painful things--and of the people who caused them--does not necessarily mean being unforgiving or not being able  to move on. Because, maybe, in remembering, you'll come to appreciate how those painful things affected your life and how the people who caused them meant to you once...before anything and everything hurtful took place.

Do I have a point? I'm not sure. Do I have to have one?

Faith or Fame: Of Which Hall Are You?

I was browsing through the Internet today at the office while working on a project. I stumbled into an article on the homepage. I guess it was my psych-ic curiousity that made me click on the link.

It was about a girl. Well, she's grown up now. And she's really famous. She's beautiful and talented. She sings and writes songs and plays the guitar sometimes in her shows. You prolly know her. You might even be a fan.

And I would have been, too. Because she's a Christian.

Or at least, she was raised as a Christian.
Like Whitney Houston. Beyonce. Avril Lavigne. Jessica Simpson.

This famous singer also grew up in church, and discovered and honed her musical talent there. She was launched as a singer formally under a Christian label before she turned 17, with the self-titled album, Katy Hudson.

Yes, I am talking (ok, writing) about Katy Perry. The singer who brought us "I Kissed a Girl," "California Girls," "Firework," and "Teenage Dream."

Here are some articles where Katy is featured talking about her background and her parents. Click here and here.
I'll let you read first before continuing on the subject. :)


To be continued...

Gap

You're there. I'm here.

It's plain to see

That you can't get anywhere

Near me

I sigh. You laugh.

And you even clap

Your hands together,

Like we can never be

It looks as though

It'll eat us alive.

I cringe at the sight

Of the black hole

That's coming between

Us and what should have been

It's waiting for us

To jump in.

My hands are tied

My lips are dry

You wave at me

Like nothing's wrong

I squint so I

Can see your face

You're getting smaller

Until you're a dot

I look down and stare

At the gap that's there

And I'm scared and disgusted

It's hell.

I blink back tears

Your voice rings

In my head

Like you're just here

"I'm with you,

dear one.

You need not fret.

I'll see you through."

You open up your arms

You're in front of me now!

Then you free-fall

Into the gap

I scream and my heart

Leaps out of my chest

And wide-eyed

I look at you falling

You disappear

Into the dark

But your light

Pierces through

The next thing I knew

You were holding me

And we were walking

Across the hole

The darkness roared

I was afraid

That it would come up

And drag me down

But you, so patiently

Walked me across

The gap

That was once in my way

You gave yourself

Because you loved

Confused and scared

I was.

I fall on my knees

Like a helpless beggar

On the streets

Crying in shame

"Why did you

do such a thing?"

I bawled.

You laugh at me again.

"You know the answer,

sweet child, precious one,

I don't need

To tell you anymore

That I love you,

And no one can change it--

With a love that

no one can give,

I saved you so that

I can be with you.

Don't fret, I'm here

to stay."

"I don't deserve this

Favor so great,

my heart bleeds

but rejoices!"

"Hush, my love,

What's done is past

I don't want to go

And dig it up now.

All I care about is now,

You, here,

I will let you start

again.

But promise me

This one thing--

All I ask is

You love me, too."

"How could I not?

To love you

Is something

I cannot help but do.

I did nothing to deserve

What you did for me

I'll do anything

To pay you back.

I give myself to you,

like you did for me,

I will love you

All of my life."

We walk together

As it should be

To a place you prepared

for us.

My heart breaks

But it is because

Joy has filled it,

Not sadness.

You wipe my tears

Draw me close

You laugh at me

Again.

"Crying is not allowed

In such a place

C'mon,

Let's look around.

Here you can go

Wherever you want

With me

For all time.

I'll walk with you

Dance with you

Listen to your

Sweet singing.

I'll hold your hand

No one will dare

To hurt you--

You are mine."

'Twas then I thought

I know it now

I left everything

In the dark

I can never go back

Not with you here

Now

There is no gap.

30 Photos Challenge: Photo #5

Photo 5)
A picture of your favorite band




Well, I do not deny the fact that this group is not an actual band.
But still.

Well, ok. Band?

:)


I am unusually out of words right now because I just got home from a camp and a wedding.
Will post more photos soon.

Why I Don't Have a Boyfriend: Random Thoughts in the Train

Ok, keep those eyebrows down, will you? :))

I don't know why I'm even writing this, aside from the fact that I want you, followers and dear readers, to understand or just have an idea of why I (and probably some of my friends--I'm not sure) are not romantically involved yet, have not been at all, and/or are not planning to be in the near future.

Hear me out first! :))

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Now it's 21! Hehe.
I'm watching SALT right now with my family.
The stunts are jaw-dropping. Angelina is WOW.


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